Been away from Tumblr for months, and today… I decided to go back on. LOL. Haaay,
Dashboard, how I missed you.
To be honest, I don’t think I’m capable of doing anything right anymore…for anyone. I’m losing hope.
I’m full of flaws & yes everyone is, but how come, only my imperfections are seen and what I have to offer fails to be noticed. But then again, with nothing coming together or falling into place like it should be, I feel so pessimistic towards life and more and more so with myself; I start to doubt myself and think maybe there’s really nothing more to me, that I’m just this bland person full of dirt and unnecessary bullshit. Maybe I’m just a living, breathing, walking evidence of stress—that who ever gets intertwined with who I am and what I am will only be full of emotional pain. The expectations people will have for me, I cannot give or show. I will never be able to give the satisfaction they want and/or need.
I’m losing hope.